u/CloudberryMuffins

F30, Europe.

Every time I am sad or feel broken, I cry a bit, then tell myself to stop acting like a child and get up and fight. It's been working for me for the past 10(?) years.

This week, a lot of stuff has happened simultaneously in my life, and I feel that this time, I'm actually broken and unable to get back up.

I've been crying nearly non stop for the past 3 days, barely eaten and slept.

Nobody died, but I've managed to destroy several relationships at once.

How do I get my mind off of that?

I'm tired of people here pretending they're friendly, sweet talk you, and then either ghost you or steer the conversation to something se*ual.

What's wrong with you guys?

I know that "normal" people go out and meet people there, and I don't expect everyone to be normal, I'm definitely not normal myself.

But this is just ridiculous.

Or when it doesn't click, just accept it and say it, then leave.

Show some basic respect!

I'm not entirely sure how to start this, so I’ll just be straightforward. F30, Europe.

I’ve been in a long-term relationship that, over time, has become emotionally draining and, if I’m honest, probably falls into the “abusive” category. I’m still in it for now, but mentally I’m already out and trying to figure out my next steps over the coming months.

The thing is, I’ve realized how isolated I’ve become. I don’t really have anyone to talk to on a daily basis, and I miss that, just having someone who checks in, shares a bit of their day, and actually listens.

I’m not here looking for a relationship. I’m still married, and I’m not trying to jump from one situation into another. What I am looking for is a genuine connection, friendship, conversation, a bit of normality.

I like a mix of things: light banter, sarcasm, but also deeper conversations when it feels right. Some days I’ll be perfectly fine, other days might be heavier, that's just where I’m at right now.

I guess what I’m saying is… I’d like someone to talk to. Someone kind, consistent, and able to both give and take in a conversation.

If that sounds like you, feel free to reach out.

Thanks for reading.