Why do I get such temptations to physically exhaust myself when I'm going through a bad period
Right now is a bad period and I've purposely made myself physically exhausted through a day of physical labour followed by a lack of appropriate sleep, and ik I'm ab to do this again tonight. it's not even like being awake at night is compelling, I hate the feeling of exhaustion but I've been thought about passing on my antihistamines in the morning so I get some bad hay fever effects, idk why because I hate feeling bad, but now that's just more compelling than anything else.