u/Cold-Field-7253

So at 34 the cocaine finally got me I had been doing it for a long time typically 8to10 bumps a day no issues until one Monday I started to feel the tightest chest pain I had ever felt an had pain shooting down both arms neck was hurting so bad I could barley turn it I was so dizzy an lightheaded I could barley stand up so I made my girl take me to the er got there an immediately was honest with them an they sprung into action . After the dust settles an I was laying in my hospital bed I realized that something had to change the problem is I don't know how to change it because I've been an addict so long I know if I don't it's going to be fatal eventually I just don't know how to change it. I guess I'm wondering have any body ever suffered a heart attack from doing cocaine an where you able to stop once they told you your life would be in jeopardy. It's like I know I need too due to the damage my heart suffered but it's like I just can't .

So I've been with this woman for 2 years she says that I am able sometimes to please her but for the most part I suck at it an I'm not good an she is tired of it she says i really love her an don't want to loose her but I'm not good at oral I get super anxious I get nervous an I start shaking an then I think I am doing bad an I usually am doing really bad she says I have her but her not being satisfied in bed is becoming a major problem I really want to be able to make her happy it's literally eating at me an consuming me that I can't then she tells me how her ex got it on the first try an she had never been with women before . Idk then it makes me wonder am I even a lesbian because it shouldn't be like this . Idk what to do I'm just sick over it