This is most definitely a cry for help but fuck it, I hate this world, I hate myself, I am a worthless piece of shit no one really cares for.
Hello everyone! Im 21 F looking for a partner to possibly RP together :)
I love me a good enemies to lovers slowburn and I also love to rp as royalty so if anyone is down to rp those two subjects hit me up!
FYI you must be 18 or over, I just dont feel comfortable role-playing with a minor. Please dont take offense.
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I feel like on this subreddit there are some people who try and help but it just comes off as a toxic kind of positivity.
Like at the very thought of being depressed makes them go on a crusade of happiness on you. Sometimes I need to feel sad to feel better but around these type of people they will take it as a personal offense that you aren't happy.
It annoys me for sure and just makes me feel even worse when they try and make me feel better.
Wowy! I love waking up every morning crying wishing my life was over!
I know its bad and not a healthy way of thinking but it makes me crazy thinking about how well off others are. I hate working and being broke. I hate waking up crying for no reason. I hate how my body shakes with anxiety everyday. I hate how I have to take pills 3 times a day to stay a tiny amount of sane.
I dont know im just ranting right now so feel free to scroll away. I just hate myself so much. I show off my body like some fucking slut and honestly I might just be one. I dont care anymore. Im thinking of just leaving home and just prostitute myself. I dont know if life will be easier but at least it'll be on my terms I guess. I just hate being broke, money doesnt solve all problems but it does solve the immediate ones. I keep thinking back to when I was in college, life was so easy. I had a sd, didn't have to work, could sleep in whenever. Now its 2026 and im 20, hate my life, wake up in emotional pain everyday.
I am going to kill myself when I gain the fucking guts to do so. I hate living. I dont think I deserve to live. I hate lying to my mom about everything being alright when it really isn't. I hate how everyone has to walk on eggshells around me because they know im emotionally unstable.
I also fucking hate how alone I am, I think what I miss most about a sugar daddy is he was basically my boyfriend in a way. Much older but he was my companion and he just got me in a way no one else did. I miss just calling him late at night and falling asleep on call. I miss going out and kissing n all that stupid shit. Now im stuck in my house if im not at work, too afraid to meet another fucking guy because of some trauma. I miss the romance. I miss that human connection. I dont like how all my relationships are online but thats what im most comfortable with at this point.
I just hate myself that I cant tell my therapist all this shit, somehow im more comfortable telling a bunch of strangers then someone im supposed to trust.
I know im a crybaby but if you can relate someway that would be cool
This cant just be me, does anyone else want to die but cant kill themselves? I sincerely hate this life and want it to end but im too much of a pussy to do it myself. Push comes to shove my mom has a loaded gun I could take but even then I rather sit infront of the train tracks or jump infront of a car.
Ive been crying nonstop every morning before work and now last night someone sent something that triggered me. I hate having to take pills and be all drugged up to feel a semi amount of normal. Sometimes I want to kill myself just so I wont have to wake up depressed anymore. Its tiring being sad all the time. I go to work and people ask me if im okay, the depression is written all over my face and it sucks. I wish I was normal.
Crying in bed before work rn, idk im just upset about alot of things but mainly my body. I got someone to do the math for me and it'll take 8 months for me to reach my goal so I can afford plastic surgery. I gained hella weight and it refuses to come off. The weight has been making me so depressed about myself its insane. I dont consider my account nsfw (probably is) but I dont even wanna post my body anymore I hate it so much. Idk im a very vain person and I always thought my body was the best thing about me. Ig saying it like that makes me sound pretty low self worth. I dont like being fat, it makes me feel gross.