u/Cold_Huckleberry_476

Ive been crying nonstop every morning before work and now last night someone sent something that triggered me. I hate having to take pills and be all drugged up to feel a semi amount of normal. Sometimes I want to kill myself just so I wont have to wake up depressed anymore. Its tiring being sad all the time. I go to work and people ask me if im okay, the depression is written all over my face and it sucks. I wish I was normal.

Crying in bed before work rn, idk im just upset about alot of things but mainly my body. I got someone to do the math for me and it'll take 8 months for me to reach my goal so I can afford plastic surgery. I gained hella weight and it refuses to come off. The weight has been making me so depressed about myself its insane. I dont consider my account nsfw (probably is) but I dont even wanna post my body anymore I hate it so much. Idk im a very vain person and I always thought my body was the best thing about me. Ig saying it like that makes me sound pretty low self worth. I dont like being fat, it makes me feel gross.