Chased people after breakup hoping it will make me feel good now exahusted idk what to do
I had a really bad breakup around a year ago, and honestly I don’t think I’ve fully recovered from it.
After the breakup, one of my biggest fears was that my ex would eventually marry someone else while I’d still be stuck grieving. That fear pushed me into matrimony apps and dating apps almost immediately. I kept trying to meet new people, hoping I’d find someone and move on faster.
Over this past year, I’ve been through so many talking stages. Some were from dating apps, some through matrimony, some through family connections. But nothing meaningful really came out of any of them.
Now I just feel emotionally exhausted.
I realized I spent so much energy chasing connections, trying to be chosen, trying to fill the void, that somewhere along the way I stopped being myself. Every new conversation started feeling like emotional work instead of excitement.
And now I’ve reached a point where I genuinely don’t feel happiness in meeting new people anymore. I don’t even know if I want a relationship right now. At the same time, my parents keep bringing new rishtas and asking me to meet more people, but internally I just feel tired and disconnected.
The strange part is I think I’m still not fully over the breakup, even after a year. Maybe I’m grieving not just the person, but the future I imagined with them.
Has anyone else gone through this phase where after too many failed talking stages and emotional burnout, you just stopped feeling anything toward dating altogether?