Rapid cycle switching ... any suggestions?
I have found a therapist who is lovely and she actually understands dissociation. She has been so helpful and we have been working together now for about 8 months. However, now that the system feels comfortable to open up, we seem to have fallen into a pattern of rapid cycle switching. It looks pretty crazy as I can go from sad to angry to hurt to whatever, all in quick succession. Like switching a few times in a minute or even mid-sentence!
This means that the system can have me changing my point of view and my feelings and responses so quickly that we can't catch hold of anything to work on it. There is also a lot of shutting down and amnesia. I am co-conscious for all of it but then my mind is sometimes wiped or I might only vaguely recall things. Therapy is supposed to help us learn to change but it is very hard to learn to change when I can't remember.
If anyone has any suggestions about rapid switching, shutting down, and amnesia, I would really appreciate it!