She was being "NICE"
A whole ass freshman year of high school...
Meetups, movie nights, baking sessions.
About 8 months of being that special type of friends where both of you feel like there's something else going on. Until I finally had the courage to ask her out...
And she said yes!!! Wtf!?
I was ecstatic, i took her out to eat at a little niche restaurant located at an abandoned bunker/fort. Not a lot of people knows about the place, and we had it all to our selves. After we had eaten, we went up to the top of the hill that the bunker laid under. I had brought a blanket and we just sat there close, watching the sunset.
I walked her to the train and as we where walking the stairs to the station, i said:
"So... are you up for date number 2?"
Again... she said yes.
We hugged goodbye. And in my mind, that date went about as well as any date possibly could have!
Mind you; she had been smiling, talking, joking, laughing. For fucks sake she let my hold her with my arm around her!
And then comes the evening after...
I text her and say: thanks for last time, I had a lot of fun! and asked her if she's up for a movie here Friday!
Her response:
"Hey! I really enjoyed myself last time too. But after thinking about it, I can see that it feels more like a friendship to me? You're really sweet, so I'd rather be honest. I'd also really like to continue as friends if you want. Hope you understand <3"
😧💀
I can't tell you how quickly my jaw dropped. I had actually been doubting that she even liked me, but after she said yes to the date, I had just driven those thoughts out!
Granted it was a nice message, I told her thanks for being honest and that I had been suspecting it.
Her response:
"Yes, I can see that. In some way, you feel like the perfect version, but I just rarely feel attracted to other people. It honestly frustrates me a little. It's good to hear that you're relieved, and maybe you even felt like we weren't really a good fit. :)"
I've never really had a crush before. I was honestly convinced that I was aromatic or asexual. Until I met her, its been a little now. We've finished our exams and stuff and summer break has never been so down. I feel like I'm never gonna feel like this again. I really only had eyes for her.
We kind of hang out a little. But it's NOT the same, it's so weird! And honestly I think I'm gonna tell her to stop seeing me, cuz it's hurts to much. Before asking about the date, I had like prepared myself for being friendzoned, but after the whole, getting hopes up shit. I just can't.