
Deafheaven is a load-bearing coping mechanism.
I got my copy of LPWP back from my brother. And I just randomly sat it here. And realized I loved it. I have my whole guitar rig set up and trying to come up with some McCoy / Mehra inspired guitar tones....
But...
Jeez is my life in shambles. I'd love to rant and vent but this isn't the place.
Deafheaven & my daughter (who shares the same name as the 2nd track off New Bermuda) are the ONLY things keeping me going. I'm throwing myself all into my own musical project. I don't want to shamelessly promote, not the place.
Deafheaven community I am a sad, and lonely 37 year old new father on the brink of total relationship collapse with my partner of 11 years.
I see myself in so much of George's lyrics. My struggles with 18 year addiction, sobriety of almost 5 years, marriage for 11... I emotionally bankrupt and the only thing left that fills the void and makes me feel anything is deafheaven.
The song "night people" is so beautiful I refuse to send it to anyone bc I know no one will ever appreciate it the way I do.
I dont know what I'm going to do. But I do know a few things. I'm going to listen to deafheaven, I am NOT going to drink or use, I AM going to love my daughter whether or not I'm with her mom, and I ABSOLUTELY refuse to go the way of Cobain, or Bennington or Cornell. My dad did that to me, at 25 years old. I can't do that to my daughter.
So deafheaven sweethearts, I need ya.
God damn do I need ya.