u/CombinationWitty1079

from the majority of the long clips i’ve seen of david after the M, he’s extremely manic and annoying. his persona is very child like and it comes across likes he’s trying trying too hard, idk it’s weird. i didn’t pay attention much to him before all this but if i had seen him i def woulda thought something was off about him.

i’ve been really interested in the past few months to see his behavior outside of the music and have been watching interviews/ streams from when he was first getting famous to when the news came out about everything.

someone reposted the full 5 hour stream of him and jason the ween’s stream of them making songs together. he’s acting completely normal, non annoying and shockingly “likable” in it.. im not sure if the over the top/ manic persona that most of us see on the clips of him was how he acted for the most part, or if it was only on occasion. but i can see why people, mostly kids took liking to him and turned a blind eye. even with the whole “blood” “gorey” violent music persona he had.

it’s honestly dangerous how he could act so normal after everything he did april of that year.. just watching it is mind blowing. it also makes me think how many people living among us that are perceived as “normal” can/ have done something we would never suspect to do.

i find it interesting how the habit of saying “huh” especially when the person heard what was being said seems to be a common trait with people who are neurodivergent. for me it’s the complete opposite lol, this is one of my deep triggers. im not sure if it stems from my neurodivergence but it really really really gets under my skin. it’s not even that i have to repeat myself, the word just deeply triggers me. random people doing it hardly bothers me. it’s the people i know because they do it 24/7. it’s not even the volume or clarityof my voice, i understand some people do it because they need a second to think. however it gets very overwhelming for so many people in my life to do this when im conversing with them, i wish it didn’t bother me so much!!

ever since i was a small child, my mom would say “huh”90% of the time something was said to her. i think this a huge reason this bothers me. my mom doing that annoys my other siblings but not to the extent it bothers me. when i try to vent to other people about this issue they laugh it off and say im over reacting. this leads me to thinking this could be another auditory trigger. people also tell me im over reacting when i get overwhelmed by someone shaking their leg, pen tapping, small lights in the distance flashing, repetitive sounds etc.

this post isn’t to attack or shame anyone who does this! i really just needed a safe place to vent and hope there’s other people out there that might relate to this.