I resent my parents for being born.
My life is constant failure, and maximum disappointment. I wasted my life and all the effort has done nothing. A life wasted from a break up. Wasted from serving a terrible country. Wasted from hard work never paying off.
No expert can help me. I tried the VA counselors and they just suck. I once got sent to psych ward calling 988 against my will. I did multiple relocations in a month span and it hasn't worked out.
I had a job and got fired for no reason. I could get fired again despite day 3 and knowing the role yet everyone there are full of dramatic complainers. Which is already a red flag for me.
I could go homeless and frankly maybe my life should get worse so I finally muster the courage to actually do something instead of moping.
My parents are evil scumbag breeders who brought me here without a plan and tbey gaslight that I have it better than them. I cut communication and live far away but despite a new state and life, failure continues.