Does it ever get better?
Im currently working in corporate and things feel so hopeless. I have been struggling to get accomodation and the right documents to support my accomodation for about a year now.
As one could imagine, a year without accommodations has not been kind to me, Im back on anti-depressants and I'm really struggling. In all of this there are times where my performance is stellar and there are times where I have been not great, this is so frustrating to me cause it feels like I'm breaking my back and my myself to just show up every day and that isn't acknowledged.
In fact instead of acknowledgement, Im starting to face issues where I'm being told that "I'm not a team player" or "I lack accountability" and "I don't want to help myself". I'm just so defeated, I've tried to communicate my struggles, I've tried asking for help and it has not worked.
I'm defeated by the fact that I'm told being that I need to meet people halfway and that I need to communicate clearly and yet it feels like Im breaking myself trying. Now I'm just left wondering if it'll get any better, if things will always be like this.Will it always feel like I'm fighting a losing battle, a battle where people say they wanna help me and at the same time say things like "do not define yourself by your neurodivergence" when I'm describing an issue I face because I am neurodivergent.