Should I punch?
So last year college apps went so shit for me but I got into TAMU. Since it was oos it was rly pricey. I decided to join the corps so I could get in state tuition. I thought I could push thru even if I wasn’t doing it for the right reason .and so far FOW has been kicking my ass. As someone who was never that social in hs and didn’t have that many friends, I always wanted that amazing college experience everyone talked about. But after doing stuff for 3 days I just feel like the corps can’t give me that. My parents and grandparents were super hyped that I’m doing this and I don’t want to disappoint them by punching even though my parents said it was okay to punch.
Add to that the fact that I’ve never seen my dad cry before and he’s cried like 4 times when moving me in and on the phone when I was telling him how hard the workout was and how bad the food is as a vegetarian. Thing is I don’t wanna call my parents again cuz I don’t want them to worry about me but I need someone to talk to.
I just thought that after all the rejections from colleges I faced last year maybe TAMU corps was a way of god telling me I’m special and that I had a different path than my friends who got into ivies. I just don’t know what to do and I’m stressed out and idk who to talk to. I regret college applications so much and I wish I hadn’t applied here and done the corps. I need some advice please. Wtf do I do. Should I punch or not? I’m also an engineering major so fuckkk.