Not a lot of background outside of the title text. It's been an ongoing issue for me all of these years, and has never stopped, I've kind of just built my life around it essentially. Me graduating in 2020 and having online college did not help at all, only amplified it.
My version of MD when I'm alone is locking myself in the bathroom, turning the fan on to block out the noise of my footsteps, then pacing back and forth or acting out the daydream I'm currently in with headphones on, either songs or edits playing to fuel the daydream. There have been nights where I'll spend literally all night in the bathroom and my feet are swollen and sore the next day. I have a permanent bump/bruise on the side of my knee where my leg hits the edge of my bathtub during my pacing.
All this to say it's constant and it's so engrained into my daily life/lifestyle as a whole that I really have no idea where to start trying to stop. I started therapy recently for a variety of other things and am terrified to bring it up to a therapist, or someone close to me for that matter.
I guess this was lowkey just a vent, but if anyone has any advice, I am open to it. I've lost a job because I could not physically pull myself out of a daydream during a work from home day and am starting a new job soon, hoping to not repeat past mistakes.
Thank you, much love to everyone :) <3