My spiritual path has been all kinds of up and down and winding. I’ve definitely fallen away for some bit (not intentionally, but I think I put my priorities and attention inna lot of the wrong places).
Lately, I feel called to grow my relationship with God more and I’ve become very conscious of how my language needs to change. I find I’m frequently gossipy and full of complaints when I’m talking to others. I know that I do this because I don’t know what else to talk about and it’s the kind of behavior I was raised around, so when I’m around others and nervous I lock up but desperately want to connect, but it’s my default to be this way and I feel I do it without thinking.
I’m going to pray about it and repent, but I’m wondering if anyone has any advice in terms of finding better ways to make conversation and how to better represent myself as a follower of Christ regardless of the company I keep.