Chin hair = sensory nightmare
Ok so I know what I need to do about this problem (get electrolysis) but I’m just wondering if anyone else can relate / found a solution to this.
I have PCOS and always struggled with acne (it cleared up mostly after a course of roaccutane). I never really had an issue with hirsutism until I turned 30, when I started to get a couple of chin hairs. At first this was only one or two here and there, and I don’t know if it’s because I’ve been plucking them but now there seems to be a cluster of spiky coarse chin hairs on both sides under my chin (they don’t seem to grow in the middle for some reason?)
Anyway it’s hard to tell how many there are because I’ve developed a love / hate relationship with plucking them daily the second I can feel the slightest spike starting to form. I’ll run my thumb under my chin until I find the slightest anomaly, and then spend the next hour digging into my chin with tweezers. If I manage to get a grip on it and pluck it out, I can physically feel my brain light up with dopamine. I literally can’t focus on anything else until I’ve removed it.
I’ve been doing this everyday for months now and it’s getting to the point where my chin is getting scarred and constantly covered in wounds / scabs from where I’ve been attacking it with tweezers. I’ve been trying to shave instead, but it doesn’t work for me because I can feel the very slight tip of the hairs still when I glide my thumb over it.
When I had acne I was also really bad for skin picking, I would just go into a trance doing it when I was watching tv as a self soothing activity. Without even realising it, my face would be destroyed and covered in blood from where I would take the tiniest spot and turn it into a raging cyst by messing with it.
And the worst part is that even though I know I need to find a solution like permanent hair removal, it also makes me sad that I’ll never get that dopamine hit again from the sweet relief of managing to pluck out that spiky stubborn chin hair. Sometimes it’s the best part of my day lol.
Also I’m pretty sure I would need to let the hair grow out between electrolysis sessions, and I honestly don’t think I have the self control. No one can see the hair (it’s under my chin and I’m blonde so you would only see it if you were searching for it) but I can’t stop touching it and consequently messing with it all day long.
Is anyone else like this?
Edit | I’ve just realised that this has gotten a lot worse / more compulsive since I started Elvanse (Vyvanse) back in December. Could it be related? It was always an issue for me even unmedicated (like the skin picking before) but I guess it’s similar to how I can’t watch porn anymore now I’m medicated or I’ll lose 12 hours lol.