u/Comfortable-Turn454

40 days in and I’ve absolutely been loving my life again. I had to up my dosage during my last psychiatric appointment and I was worried, but once again I adjusted extremely well. I’ve been encouraged to do things I love again and not be so scared about life and everything involved in it. I can’t even remember the last time I had a panic attack when, before this, I was getting them constantly every day. It saddens me that people have such negative things to say about this medication sometimes because I truly think it saved my life and got me out of a deep, dark mindset I’d been stuck in for years. I don’t care about people’s opinions anymore, I’m not ripping at my chest due to anxiety, and I’m not staying up all night contemplating my life or having harmful thoughts. I like the numb feeling after feeling everything so heavily to the point where it was taking over my life. I still care, just not compulsively or obsessively. It’s been great!

He has been an alcoholic his whole life, ever since I could remember he’s always been a drinker. Liquor, beer, wine, anything he can get. He’ll walk the streets to go to gas stations, he stashes empty pints of liquor all around the house and our property. It’s ruined his marriage with my mother. He gets extremely toxic and rude and aggressive when he drinks. He is getting older, and he is still drinking heavily. I’ve noticed he is starting to forget everything when he drinks, I’m talking conversations that had just happened 5 minutes ago. He used to not be like this, meaning he would be coherent enough to remember conversations that he would have at the very least. I’m not talking about the next day usually he’ll always forget the next day I’m talking about in present time.

He is passed out drunk right now, my mother is away. I’m taking care of him and babysitting. I am 22 years old. I cannot keep living like this but am so scared of what will happen once I’m not here to help and monitor. I need to move on with my life but risk not being there when my mother or anyone else needs me. I’m worried every night he won’t wake up. I am completely sober, I do not drink. I don’t understand how someone can devote their lives to ruining theirs and their families. I am scared. I need advice or some help or just something from someone. I have no one and sadly my whole family is filled with addicts or alcoholics.

As of right now I am checking on him periodically which is what I usually have to do when my mother isn’t around. He’s laying on his side and is breathing has been passed out I would say for almost two hours now. I am stressed, I don’t want to sleep. I need advice please. Anything.

I apologize if this isn’t allowed, I just need advice from other people because I don’t have much people in my personal life. I’ve tried posting in other subreddits but because of all the rules and requirements my posts never make it.

But I need some relationship advice or more so just if I’m overreacting by spiraling on it or it affecting my mental health.

How do I know if my boyfriend is being flirtatious or maybe even possibly have interest in his female coworker? I’ve been having this feeling in my stomach for a few months now, I do trust him and I dropped the feeling after awhile but something happened to spark it back up again and now I seem to think about it every time I see he is spending extra time (more than usual) at his office.

We were out at the park one day, just going for a walk when all the sudden he had a voicemail left from his boss. It was a butt dial and it was clear he was very intoxicated. Well in the butt dial voicemail he was speaking to his wife and talking about my boyfriend. When all of the sudden she brings up the woman I was already having second guesses about. And they start talking about a potential relationship between the two but then laughed and said “he’s already committed tho”. Prior to this I found messages where she was just being overly friendly and defiantly flirty. Sending emoji’s and just being too nice if you know what I mean. I ignored the messages and would tease him that she had a crush on him but I didn’t think much of it because he wasn’t really reciprocating anything back. Until he got this voicemail and I thought it was so strange that the only woman I ever had my doubts about was now getting discussed in a potential relationship matter with him?

He calls me crazy every time I have brought it up, and says he will never do that to me. But I don’t know I’ve been paying attention to other things now like IE: him spending way more time at the office than usual. I don’t know, I trust him and like I said I wasn’t thinking too much of it until the banter his boss had because how disrespectful to me to joke about something like that when his boss is aware he’s in a committed relationship.

Sorry once again if this isn’t allowed it’s just truly bothering my mental health and making me insecure that maybe he’s gotten bored of me so that’s why he started entertaining it. I’ve been struggling with health issues for months now and unable to perform sexually like how I used too. So maybe it’s my own insecurities coming out to play. Just some nice womanly advice would be nice.

I was sick from February- end of April. Having severe irritation in my vagina and then also such painful gas issues. It was the most pain and exhausted I have ever been in my life. I finally started to get better, thought a lot of it was maybe placebo and anxiety related because once prescribed hydroxyzine and Prozac the symptoms gradually started to get better. Well, I did not have sex for months with my boyfriend. Finally did I would say very end of April to beginning of March.

Not using spit anymore because I realize that makes me overly irritated down there and we weren’t using lube either which was silly I know. Well I ended up getting a tear or fissure so then was in pain AGAIN waiting for that to heal. While we were having sex tho it did not hurt, I was not having any irritation down there until the tear happened.

Well I was finally healed up decided to try and have sex last night and right after was in extreme pain. Only thing I could compare it to was severe gas pain and like my pelvic and vagina were literally hanging lower, I still don’t know if that’s the best descriptions. Just sore and painful. Passing gas helps with the pain and taking Tylenol I’m just so confused on what is happening. It was so bad last night but felt better today and more bearable. I can feel it slowly getting better but for months now it’s just constant issues I’m having with everything down there, to my vagina, pelvic area, intestines. It feels like everything

I’ve had blood work done, urine tests done, been to the doctors, ER, and Urgent Care multiple times waiting to see a gyno STILL because it’s a joke.

Please please if anyone has any advice or anything that they think might be going on. I’m getting so scared I’m dealing with a chronic illness here. My hopes is that I took a long break from sex which is irregular for me and had rough sex without using anything to help or make it easier on my body / down there. It does not hurt to urinate, I can still have bowel movements as well. It’s just so sore and uncomfortable. I love having sex. But I hate it now and my body. I’ve gotten severe depression over the last months while dealing with all of this and I feel like nothing is getting better. I am scared.

All lab results have came back that I’m perfectly okay apparently

I am obsessed with this subreddit and just want to make so many posts about all the little issues and thoughts we all go through as women.

It feels so refreshing to have so many women be so nice and supportive in this community without any judgement. I love getting people’s advice especially from anyone who has a uterus and understands! Lol.

With women’s health being such a little important factor in just about any research it’s beyond nice to have this group to go to when scared or not knowing what to do.

I have always mostly just drank water. I’m very prone to UTIs and get chronic ones. And I realized when drinking other fluids it makes me feel off balanced down there and just overall low energy so I stick to just water. All day, everyday. With the occasional treat of a sweet tea SOMETIMES.

Well I’ve been peeing so much lately! And I know it sounds funny to be complaining about that if you’re drinking over 64oz of water a day but I swear it used to not be this bad! I have always been a heavy water drinking and swear it’s every 30minutes - an hour I’m having to pee. Im worried my bladder might be “untrained” and can’t hold pee like it used to or maybe even if something is wrong?

But I’m peeing all day! Once again I know it might sound silly since I’m drinking so much water but I’ve never peed this much in my life! And I’ve been able to hold my pee for a little bit, I cannot do that now. Is it an age thing too maybe? I’m also 23.

I’m currently on 20mg, hit my over two weeks mark and feel I need to higher my dosage. I’m still depressed and have been noticing my anxiety coming back more. What dosage is everyone on? And what dosage finally made you start feeling complete?