My husband and I have been together for 15 years. Most of our issues are caused by my ahdh and autism. He still takes the thing i can and cannot do normally offensively, like im trying to hurt him. Every problem he has with me, its directly relates to adhd or autism. He knew i was like this a decade before we got together. I dont have insurance. So i cant be medicated right now. I cant seem to get him to understand that I cant always act normal because I am not normal and he doesnt see how hard I try to be normal. He hates me right now. I freeze up, literally, when i was to initiate something physical. Its usually always him, he doesn't feel desired, even though I say it out loud all the time. He swears he did reading about all of it but he doesnt act like it sometimes. And ive been in a slump because someone is in town that used to beat me. So im kind extra out of it and scared.
How can I get past freezing up? I need to show him the way i feel. I apologize constantly. I had no help until I was an adult, and i would barely call it help. Ask anything you want. Please help me.