Panic breakdowns
Im 20F , im lost till a point where i feel like unaliving myself , can u pls help me to how to stop this pain .. i breakdown everywhere everyday in the middle of some exam while eating while sitting with friends
I beg god in that postion of panic where my body just gives up upon itself and i get episodes of crashout where i cant speak my stomach pushes my body inside and i start hurting myself with either punching myself on my face or thighs ...
Im so so fucking lost that when and howthis shit will end , i just want to be genuinely happy for once constantly i just want to redeem myself back , my boyfriend broke up with me due to me being so sick of this panic and now im in the shitiest zone of my life
I try to put my faith in god and that god will help me to stop this and its his decision when to stop this or not but i find myself only to beg on the floor crying beating myself for this to stop , for god to help me for once to stop this episode and be normal for once
Usually my lifestyle use to trigger this panic or some academic failure but ever since my boyfriend stopped to care about my existence its the thought of our relationship, or glimses of our memories i get thst break me down completely
Idont want to be dead but i sont see any reason to stop this
God im so tired and desperate pls can someone just tell me what to do