My dad calls me a 5 year for crying and tells me to act like an adult
Just venting here. I didn't want to come to writing this, but lately my dad's yelling has gotten worse. I've dealt with it since I was 7 years old and at such a young age I didn't care because I knew that he would be back to normal. Now that I'm 18 years old it's starting to mentally drain me, and I don't know what to do his words distort my way of thinking. I can't help but think maybe he's right about me. Whenever, he yells at me I start crying and lately when I do, he says to stop that crap and act like a adult, and that I'm not a 5-year-old anymore. He calls me names, like stupid or will say something like no wonder your coach didn't like you. As you can imagine I just feel like I'm being lectured and can't have a say anything because I'm too afraid. My mom unfortunately doesn't do anything about it because sometimes he will do the same to her. She tells me that he loves me though and that her dad was the same when she was little. And even though he physically sees me crying, he says that he isn't being mean but he's being real and not treating me like a kid anymore and continues to say that my mom babies me and my siblings. He's also said that even though he sees me crying he will look at me straight in the eye because he doesn't care. Yesterday, he yelled at me and today was going well but all of a sudden, he changed up. Today, I passed my driving test and afterwards he was happy for me and so was I around an hour or so after he switches up and gets mad at me for not thanking him for teaching me and says this didn't happen because of you but because of me. Now he's back to ignoring me. And after all these times, he's yelled he's never once apologized. I don't know what to do anymore, if anyone has advice to just keep living without having his words affecting me so much, I'll take it. Or how can I stop myself from crying when he yells? I'm trying to transfer soon, so I can get out of the house, but I feel bad for leaving my mom.