Still dysphoric even on HRT
Hi friends, I’m Alex, I’m AMAB and I’ve been on injectable estradiol for almost 9 months now. Before this I was on 3mg of oral estradiol for almost 3 years I think. Lately I’ve been feeling incredibly dysphoric, I just feel like either side of the spectrum I’m on I feel like it never goes away. I’ve identified as nonbinary since 2020. I think I’m still nonbinary and maybe not a trans woman, but I’ve really really been having a hard time lately and I feel like the longer I’m on this dose the more crazy(for lack of a better word) I feel.
Some days I’m so happy with where I am and others I want to tear out of my skin because I just feel so out of place. My libido has basically been killed and things don’t work anymore like they used to. My partner and I haven’t had sex in probably 6 months now and they say it’s okay but I really am feeling lost in my life and identity and I feel like it’s killing the relationship as well because I don’t know what I’m really doing anymore.
I’m very very sad. I really need advice from other trans nonbinary people that have maybe gone through a similar situation before. I’ve been considering stopping HRT but I worry things will get even worse.
If anyone has any advice I would really really appreciate it.
Also why do I cry SO MUCH? It just pours out of me at random times and I feel like I can’t control it when it wells up. This part feels silly to me but the rest is serious
(Tagged as NSFW because i mentioned sex/genitals and don’t wanna get removed. Never posted here before so just being careful)