how do yall cope with having ndph?
ive always been an optimist but its getting real fuckin hard trying to be optimistic these days. i was diagnosed when i was 13 years old and im going to be turning 19 in a few months, i had hope for a while that itd go away eventually but i feel so lost at this point. its robbed me of everything i used to love and the pain just keeps getting worse each year despite the ungodly amount of medications ive tried. i had a chance of playing college football but was forced to quit right when i was starting to get close to my goal, i had to decline a 130k scholarship to an art school i really wanted to go to because im physically unable to leave my house half the time, and i cant even enjoy the rain anymore without feeling like my heads going to split in half. my brain simply doesnt work how it used to and its incredibly depressing to think about. how am i supposed to come to terms with the fact that i may never be able to live normally??