Today marks 128 days since I quit a 7 month long 300-500mgpd 7oh habit alongside a 10 year long 25-30gpd leaf habit fully cold turkey.
I figured I'd give an update due to a strange occurrence last night. For the first time since quitting, I had a dream about 7. The bulk of the dream is fragmented; however, in it I found a 7oh tablet in my house. I remember holding it in my hand and looking at it while considering taking it when I had a "What the fuck am I doing?" moment before tossing it aside. When I woke up, that stuck in my mind and all I could do is smirk. It seems even my dream self has no interest in it anymore.
Back to the basics of this post. All of my motivation and interest in hobbies is back and amplified. In my previous posts I mentioned feeling that way but now it's even more apparent. I find myself getting more engrossed in things than I have in many years. Falling down the rabbit holes bordering on obsession of things I find interesting is a regular occurrence. Getting enthralled with books and study has been long absent but back on the menu.
I've also been working out regularly, something I haven't done in ages and the results are slowly but surely coming in. The energy I feel isn't manufactured. It's real.
As another aside, I recently had another week-long business trip and not experiencing the despair I used to feel about not having a "source" near me was, once again, a freeing reminder.
This was a quick one but after that dream I figured it appropriate to make a post. Stay true and I'll see you on the other side.