u/CommentHopeful9487

when i was 14 or 15 and my sister was 7 or 8 i was in the pool with my sister when i suddenly remembered a video i saw about the actor of DJ from full house talking about skinny dipping and i got curious i told my sister i was going to swim underwater and then pushed myself forwards and backwards to make my shorts fall down and when she told me they where falling down its like my brain was blacking her voice out i wanna make it clear that I HAVE NEVER HAD ANY SORT OF SEXUAL ATTRACTION TO MY SISTER AND NEVER WILL. I would never want to traumatise her in anyway shape or form and i have never laid a hand on her i’m currently not sure what to do anymore i know she feels safe around me and knows i would never want to hurt her but i’m not sure if she remembers or not these memories came back at 16 and i was so disgusted in myself to the point i almost attempted i just need someone to speak about this with because i truly don’t know what to do anymore. I was exposed to a lot of 18+ content at ages like 4-7 by family members i’m not using this an excuse for my disgusting actions but i do feel like it plays a part on why i was even thinking this way at that young