TLDR; Rant, new positive, disclosure anxiety.
As anyone who got the news I'm (35F) freaking out, went for a routine blood test and agreed to STD check asked by doctor. To my surprise HSV2 comes up abnormal, later confirmed with another blood test. I'm freaking out because Ive been married for 7 years, zero symptoms, asymptomatic asf. Zilch. Ive gotten routine checks at the gynecologist throughout the years - all clean. Except I just found out they NEVER tested for HSV. I am broken. My naivety has put someone's life at risk. Three years ago, my husband got tested for a routine bloodwork with STDs and he came up clean. I assumed I was because we are exclusive - right? I'm unsure if HSV was included with his test.
Before my current relationship I was fwb with someone who I recently just found out was dealing with someone that was open about their diagnosis. I have no idea if it was him or even before that as I've never been tested before.
Are there any people that have no passed it their partners?
How do I go about telling him?
. I have no idea how to have this conversation. Accepting all stories, advice, whatever you have for me.
To be clear, I'm not freaking out because I was diagnosed. Im freaking out because I have to tell my spouse and it feels as though my life will implode.