I needed a way out, so I made one. All the reminders but one were already gone before you even knew what happened
All the cold nights Ive spent hoping you’d arrive to even just notice me
All the chances I’ve given to you were always taken for granted, even if you say you tried, I know you did, but you never made an effort to change. I left you alone with that chance for too long. And I should have taken my chance to leave when you did the same thing a second time, that became my line the first and you crossed it, just as I did yours. But of course I’m the one who forgives the mess you made while you never once made changes to the cause.
We both feel absolutely threatened by connection and I simply am better at pretending I’m not, but I couldn’t pretend anymore. Not when it was mostly one sided anyway
So either block me, or I will.
Because I can’t make sense of my own mess, so I need to push onward by myself. It is the best thing I can do.
We may have been loyal to the end but the only thing that was really there was loyalty, followed by distraction. I may have been the one to hit the smoke just to ruin us, and I am sorry for the trouble it caused your mind. But that’s the only form of closure I really feel comfortable to give you
You’ve kept my wear’s and I kept your letter. That’s all that I’m willing to accept as my reminders for good, I couldn’t burden you with my darkness. So go, leave me behind and focus on you. I’ll do the exact same.