Advance help
This has to be the first time I'm experiencing this level of stress and anxiety while writing the paper.
I thought I had good control on my thoughts and emotions during exams (I did in mains 1, lost cool in 2 but managed somehow, ruined BITSAT) but while writing advance mocks I'm fine for a few minutes and then so many negative talks and unpleasant, irritating, infuriating things flood my mind that I can't even concentrate on reading the questions.
Today while I was doing physics in paper 1 a few lines kept repeating in my mind
" Boards me 90% nahi aye toh dekh lena"
" Jee kar liya toh hawa me mat udo, boards me 90 aane chahiye, bhaad me jaaye advance or coaching"
Meri nahi bani 90+ , got 87.8 only
" Waah dekh uske parents ko school bula kar maala pehnayi or photo khichayi , waah kitni proud ki baat hai uske liye"
" ___________ ki photos dekhi saare bacho ke saamne felicitation kiya"
And meri mummy sabko call karke bol rahi hai ki iske toh bohot Kam aye hai ....
Ik ki 90 nhi aye par mai toh bohot khush thi because I literally studied 2 days before exams, meri ncert abhi bhi nayi jaisi hai ....
And idk ye exam pressure ki wajah se hai yaa sachme meri gharwalo ke taunts affected me soooo much ki aisa ho raha hai ...
Aaj se pehle kabhi nahi hua, tab bhi pressure tha par ig I took things too personally this time, is baar sensitive spot par hit hua hai ....
How to control your thoughts during exams ???
And 20 minutes baad I was normal par in those 20 minutes maine sirf timer par seconds kam hote hue dekhe ...