Struggle to leave at the end of session
Hey everyone, I'm wondering if anyone else experiences this and/or anyone has any tips or advice?
I've been with my therapist for 10 years now and she's seen me through sooo much. I've always felt reluctant to leave at the end of session and go back out into the world but the last year I've been struggling with it so much and finding it quite distressing at times.
My therapist tells me she thinks of me between sessions and often says 'see you Monday' or whatever to cement the fact that there is another session to come back to etc but it's become a trigger in and of itself at this point. Attachment issues go all over the place, I find myself feeling really despairing and my mind races, and then i feel like a burden or like I'm somehow manipulating the situation and trying to push boundaries or that's how it looks but all the while my feet just won't move. Although I never actually stay past the time except on occaisions she's made it clear that's okay and no one else is coming. But i get myself so wound up it takes anywhere from an hour to a day or two to come down from it sometimes - depending on where my general mental health is at.
Just wondering if anyone else experiences this? And any tips or advice would be helpful.
It's an on going discussion with my T but I've yet to find much that actually helps. It feels like a roulette each time how hard I'm gunna find it to step out the door :(