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I started the process to get my abuser into Alternative Dispute Resolution. So that means we won’t go to court but I will still see him to tell him what he’s done. The process could start any day now and I’m scared cause he doesn’t know what he’s done. The fact is I never report him because he has an autism diagnosis even tho he always told me it didn’t affect him that much. But because of that I feel like I will ruin his life because I say he SAd me and he doesn’t think that. He thinks he was just proving his love to me. I said 67 times no and he never stopped (even when I was uncounscious). But is it bad to feel in the wrong anyway ? I feel like he’s a good guy and didn’t wanna harm me…. So maybe I was just uncomfortable? Idk what to think anymore

I was SA two times in the last 4 years…. And I feel so deeply alone in all of this. I’ve been to therapy but nothing works really well. I just feel like I need someone to understand me deeply and that I understand them too. I have a best friend and a boyfriend but I feel like they don’t understand how bad it can get… I’d like sometimes to talk about it to people that know what it’s like.. and to hear stories to understand I am ,in fact, not alone in all this. ( I speak French and English btw) I know some people get trigged really bad hearing stories and I don’t.