My wife is 38 weeks, so the baby will be coming very soon. He’ll be a lad like me 🩵 Initially I was very excited with lots of ideas of what we’ll do - we’re gonna play football, ride our bikes, have fun etc.
But lately I’m very nervous. I was born with profound hearing loss and I wear hearing aids. But I can communicate perfectly anyway. Life is good - blessed with house, family, health, security, and job. It’s just been rough growing up - bullying, insecurity, and self hate I guess etc. If the baby fails the hearing I’m gonna feel bad and responsible cause my wife’s hearing is perfect. So it won’t be her fault.
Neither my grandparents, cousins, aunties, uncles parents or twin sister have hearing loss but my brother does. Having said that he had a daughter and she didn’t have hearing loss. So it’s anyone’s guess really whether or not he’ll have it.
I know we should embrace disabilities but unfortunately in real life people don’t do that. It made me hate myself. I feel bad because I should be saying this doesn’t matter but it actually bothers me a lot. I’ve not spoke about it to anyone but inside I’m struggling.