[Musing] Used to believe that dramatic first encounter can't exist in real life
More of a skl. Idk how to flair this hdhdhsjhds
This is gonna be one hell of a long post.
For context: Last night, I went to a live music show alone. Life has been pretty rough lately and even had an emotional breakdown before going there. So I went to the live show with no other expectations but to just set aside all of my worries and enjoy the live music. I got the left-most front row seat at the show, then there's this really pretty girl sat beside me, like REALLY PRETTY. I was lowkey gay panicking and only looked at her from the corner of my eye. I couldn't even dare myself to fully look at her.
I still watched the whole live show and enjoyed it. But while at it, I couldn't help but get a glimpse of her every now and then. I've noticed how she only took small clips of video of each songs, how she vibed to the music, how she sang along to the song she knows, how she covered her exposed neck cuz of the cold room. I just couldn't help but notice them, even from the corner of my eye. Even learned that she also went to the live show alone after the artist asked who went alone to watch.
After the show, we sat there for quite a bit and I was debating with myself if I should try to talk to her and exchange IGs. But fear took over me, so I just stood up to go to the line for the meet & greet with the artist at the right side of the room. The exit is also at the right side of the room, so she was heading for my direction. That was only the time I got to see her face fully and SHE'S REALLY PRETTY TANGINA. And when we had eye contact, she bowed at me and I bowed back. I felt my knees gotten WEAK after that encounter. I tried to look for her when I went out the venue, but seems like she was really gone.
So I've been going to this OPM artist's live shows multiple times alone, but never had an organic encounter like this at all. I've really come to believe that I won't experience any romantic encounters at all. But last night made me feel like something shifted so much in me from just seeing her and having that kind of encounter.
I used to think things like this only happen in movies. I used to think things like this could never happen to me. I used to think I won't experience feeling this kind of butterflies in my stomach from a first encounter. Everything felt so new to me. This is must be the kind of feeling others say about first encounters.
All of the songs performed were about romantic love. Which made this whole experience even more dramatic, cinematic, and unexpectedly romantic. It's even wild to think that we even accidentally matched clothes cuz my sweater is the same color as her top and pants. Because of the music, this encounter made it even more magical and unforgettable. Everything was so coincidental like I was in some kind of an AU/fanfic. It's like God is telling me that it's time for me to make landi haha.
I still can't forget her. Tho I honestly can't remember her face fully anymore, but she has been on my mind the whole day. I've already accepted that this kind of encounter is one of those "once in a lifetime" experiences. But at the back of my mind, I do wish I'll get to see her again. And if that ever happens, I hope I'll be more braver to approach and talk to her.
PS: Sana di siya str8 EMEEEE HAHDJSHSJDJKS