What the hell is that that I’ve felt all my life? 😭
When I was a child I didn't question my gender identity so deeply, but I think I was sure that I wanted to be a girl. Then I grew up and naturally tried cross-dressing, but it felt more like a "disguise" than a revelation to me, so I left it because (I'm sorry for what I'm going to say) it felt embarrassing, it just didn't feel right. And now that I gave it, that idea for being a woman just doesn't go away. The thing is that I don't feel the urgency or dysphoria regarding my gender so intense either. I mean, I don't see it impossible or tragic to live as a man either. Sometimes I embrace my masculinity. In fact, even if I made a transition, I probably wouldn't be the most feminine woman hahahaha. I don't quite understand if I'm trans or rather I'm a fluid gender.