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Hi all, I’ve suffered from various forms of OCD in the past such as real event (my worse theme to date), POCD, etc etc.

I’ve been in a relationship for 5 years, I am a 24M and have never really experienced the single life and hookup culture, and part of me longs for this and is scared of settling down before finding out what it’s like to be my own individual.

I’ve had thoughts like this for years now, and it’s becoming harder and harder to disregard these thoughts and desires and prevent myself from ruminating on them, as there is genuinely a kernel of truth to these feelings, however i feel so so terrible for having these feelings, like I am the worst person on the planet.

As much as part of me wants to experience what it’s like to be free, another part of me is absolutely terrified and know this would throw my life into a potentially way worse situation, i’d have to move back in with my mother who lives hours away and I am very reluctant to do this.

Has anyone else experienced similar things like this? Any help would be much appreciated, I just want to be at peace and stop beating myself up over this.

Hi all,

24 year old male here from UK. Just like most people i’ve never known what I wanted from life but grew up poor with a go get it mindset so I just picked something i thought i was okay out and grinded it out, disregarding the fact that i hated every second of it as i am stubborn and can’t quit.

I really could do with some advice from people who graduated from uni with degrees they hated or regret and still made a decent living doing something they like. I spend every waking second of my days for the past few years living in a state of constant dread and regret, thinking about what life would be like if i just studied something else such as compsci or finance, or idk…literally anything else!

So, I graduated with a 2:1 in biochem and went to do a masters (graduated with distinction) in drug discovery & development from UCL (i didn’t even know you could do a masters in something else i would’ve picked a compsci conversion). I’ve been working for two years now at a CRO but it feels completely misaligned with who I am and I just feel so damn lost here.

The thing that haunts me the most is that i forced myself through four years of working hard for something I didn’t care about at all, plus £84k in debt (yay). Surely I knew how much i hated it and i could’ve just waved the flag, but I kept seeing my poor single mother who worked hard her whole life in manual labour to support me and I didn’t want to give up (im the first in my family to go to uni).

Sorry if this post is kind of all over the place, i’m in a bit of a state rn when writing this so just blurting out everything onto the page i can think of.

Any advice on how to fix this shitshow would be greatly appreciated. I really thank you if you managed to read this whole thing, it means a lot to me.

Goodnight everyone :)

Hi all,

24 year old male here from UK. Just like most people i’ve never known what I wanted from life but grew up poor with a go get it mindset so I just picked something i thought i was okay out and grinded it out, disregarding the fact that i hated every second of it as i am stubborn and can’t quit.

I really could do with some advice from people who graduated from uni with degrees they hated or regret and still made a decent living doing something they like. I spend every waking second of my days for the past few years living in a state of constant dread and regret, thinking about what life would be like if i just studied something else such as compsci or finance, or idk…literally anything else!

So, I graduated with a 2:1 in biochem and went to do a masters (graduated with distinction) in drug discovery & development from UCL (i didn’t even know you could do a masters in something else i would’ve picked a compsci conversion). I’ve been working for two years now at a CRO but it feels completely misaligned with who I am and I just feel so damn lost here.

The thing that haunts me the most is that i forced myself through four years of working hard for something I didn’t care about at all, plus £84k in debt (yay). Surely I knew how much i hated it and i could’ve just waved the flag, but I kept seeing my poor single mother who worked hard her whole life in manual labour to support me and I didn’t want to give up (im the first in my family to go to uni).

Sorry if this post is kind of all over the place, i’m in a bit of a state rn when writing this so just blurting out everything onto the page i can think of.

Any advice on how to fix this shitshow would be greatly appreciated. I really thank you if you managed to read this whole thing, it means a lot to me.

Goodnight everyone :)

Hi all,

24 year old male here from UK. Just like most people i’ve never known what I wanted from life but grew up poor with a go get it mindset so I just picked something i thought i was okay out and grinded it out, disregarding the fact that i hated every second of it as i am stubborn and can’t quit.

I really could do with some advice from people who graduated from uni with degrees they hated or regret and still made a decent living doing something they like. I spend every waking second of my days for the past few years living in a state of constant dread and regret, thinking about what life would be like if i just studied something else such as compsci or finance, or idk…literally anything else!

So, I graduated with a 2:1 in biochem and went to do a masters (graduated with distinction) in drug discovery & development from UCL (i didn’t even know you could do a masters in something else i would’ve picked a compsci conversion). I’ve been working for two years now at a CRO but it feels completely misaligned with who I am and I just feel so damn lost here.

The thing that haunts me the most is that i forced myself through four years of working hard for something I didn’t care about at all, plus £84k in debt (yay). Surely I knew how much i hated it and i could’ve just waved the flag, but I kept seeing my poor single mother who worked hard her whole life in manual labour to support me and I didn’t want to give up (im the first in my family to go to uni).

Sorry if this post is kind of all over the place, i’m in a bit of a state rn when writing this so just blurting out everything onto the page i can think of.

Any advice on how to fix this shitshow would be greatly appreciated. I really thank you if you managed to read this whole thing, it means a lot to me.

Goodnight everyone :)