I hate my father
I don't get it. He loves me a lot. He buys me whatever I ask him. He buys me my favourite food, stationary and whatever I ask him.
But.
He hits me and my mom sometimes and often times he uses extremely foul language and bad words which I find so derogatory I had to listen this from my own father.
Okay, let me tell you one simple instance. Today morning, my father wanted to go somewhere, and when my mother asked him, "are you going somewhere"? , he said "Tumhari maa ki ch*t, M***c*of, itna bhi pata nahi, muzr bahar jana hai, kaha dhyaan rehta hai tera?" This really upset me.
And instances like these occur many times. I don't want to live with him, but I have to live. I don't want to love him, but I love him, because he loves me a lot.
What should I do?