I Think About This Every Now and Then
So, I want to say in 2022 or 2023 maybe, definitely a few years ago, me(24 now but probably 22 or 23 back then)and my brother(now 25 but 23 or 24 back then)were returning "home" from hanging out with someone my brother has had more experience hanging out with, though sometimes he will invite me to come over to said friend's place, which I would do every once in a while. This friend's place is about a ten minute walk away at most. Well, we had been hanging out at that friend's place for probably 4-5 hours, definitely longer than 2, and when we got back, our "mother" was sitting on the couch, smoking inside. As soon as we stepped in, there was scrap papers scattered around, playing cards, and some Scrabble pieces as well, since we had those things(obviously). It wasn't like that when we left. For context, we lived, and still do live in those apartments, though I've been told they're townhouses(?), and I think I might have been the one who brought up as to if she was allowed to be smoking inside, which I guess it was? Anyway, she was NOT happy. One of the things she was upset about was how we didn't check in by coming back over to our apartment, like every hour or something to check in, something like to make sure she wasn't...well, let's just say her reason was if she was no longer of this world because she has some health stuff going on. But, she was upset because we have our own smartphones and didn't even bother to check in on those. Me and my brother have been told at least a couple times that realistically it's ridiculous to have to check in when we're someplace only ten minutes away, but that's just one of the rules, is to check in if we head out every hour or so.
Back to the smoking situation...
So we get back from visiting the friend, and, I can't remember these details all the way, but I remember she( "mother" ) said something like, how what if she just dropped her cigarette on the floor, and the place caught on fire. That same night(because we had arrived back at night), I had overheard she tell my brother that "he had it coming", when he asker her if she had ever thought about hitting him, or something like that, and how when he didn't react a certain way(like break down crying), that he was a sociopath.
Maybe it was foolish of me to flee upstairs and to the balcony of me and my brother's room, and I feel like I shouldn't have, and that I was pathetic for doing so, but just...sometimes there would be no point, and I would probably feel even worse if I stuck around. Me and my brother did end up staying at that friend's place for a couple weeks to leave that environment, with some of our belongings.
I already know with this next bit of information, people are probably going to bring up the idea of getting a job and saving enough to move out, or to at least stay at a shelter, but just excluding this, what are your thoughts on this?