I think I just needed to vent. Long story short, my mother found a lump in her breast 7 years ago and tried to cure it using “natural” remedies. She didn’t tell anyone until 2 years ago because she didn’t want to stress anyone out. By the time she went to an actual doctor to get a diagnosis she was stage 4. Metastasis in bones, liver, etc. I also have a bunch of anger toward her for not telling me but I’m trying to let it go.
She started taking medication and for the last 2 years she was ok. Then things got worse around Christmas. She started complaining of stomach pain and we found out the cancer had got more aggressive. 2 weeks ago she started chemo and she is so very sick. She doesn’t want to eat, her skin is yellow, and she can barely move. She also is very confused. But she says she still wants chemo….
My wedding is also next month. I am just so heartbroken. I thought I had time. I want to enjoy my wedding but idk if I can. I feel selfish for wanting to still have it. I just can’t believe this is happening. I feel so angry with the world. My best friend is dying and I don’t know what to do.