I don't even know why I'm posting here. Maybe just to feel like someone's awake with me right now.
I have an exam in 6 hours. I failed this exact course last year and I have to pass it this time. It's not optional. My parents think things are fine ...they don't know I've been on medication for anxiety and insomnia for a while now. They think I'm handling it.
I'm not handling it.
The part that's messing with me most isn't even the exam. It's this feeling that I've already used up too many chances. That the version of me my parents believe in doesn't really exist. And tomorrow might be the day that becomes impossible to hide.
I don't have a question. I'm not looking for study tips. I just needed to say this somewhere that wasn't my bedroom ceiling.
Will I be alive after this exam?