Brother going to prison
My brother is going to prison and i would like some new perspectives/ insights from other people.
My brother got arrested 2 years ago for cp. We were shocked, and scared, since i have a young son.
Eventually it came to light that he was initially arrested for coercion with nudes from a young woman for money. She took him to court, they took his devices and found files and files of porn.
His lawyer told us that he had tried to sell the porn, he had Downloaded it from the dark web and inbetween those big files were a few videos of cp. So he wasnt consuming it or actively searching for it.
Fact is, he tried to sell illegal porn, and tried to scam and coerce a young woman for money with her nudes.
Now he has been in prison for 3 months, full sentence would have been 9 months but he got a trial time of 3 years. If he would commit a second crime in that period he would sit the full time of 9 months.
He did. He did commit another crime. He just (a few days ago) got arrested for making pictures of women in changing rooms, naked. He is probably going to sit the full 9 months now since its still in his trial time.
I am struggling how to see or think of him. I am a young woman and have been catcalled and harassed by men a lot. I carry a lot of trauma from men who do things exactly like my brother just did....
How can i look at him? How can i respect him? When his crimes are vile and sad and absolutely disgusting. He is a creep, there are no other words for his behaviour.
I know he is suicidal, i am scared to loose him. He has always been kind and loving towards me and my son. I do want to be there for him, i am afraid if we as a family give up on him, that he will step out of this life. I could not live with myself of that ever happened.
How do i support him as a family member who does not want to loose him, but deal with the vile and disgusting crimes he has committed? How do i look him in the eye? How do i let him know what he did made me loose trust in him, but that i am still there as his sister?
Its so difficult and emotionally confusing.
Anyone with advice or similar experiences would be appreciated 🙏
(edit) i see i could have been more clear about the cp. the police have done thorough research and what he did was Download file after file of porn. in 1 file would be thousands of videos. they said the cp were 5 videos in total. even the judge acknowledged he did not deliberately Download the cp, he couldnt have seen every single one of the videos he downloaded, it were simply too many. but since he did possess cp, he got jail time anyway because that is the law.
the judge even acknowledged this and the police told us so too. so i do believe that the cp was an accident, because i do trust their abilities to research this. i would not have believed his word on this matter alone. but i do trust the police and judge.