u/Competitive-Bad-8089

i left him but i keep remembering things and getting angry and upset. it feels like everything is so unfair and i’m annoyed that it feels like i’m the only one who cared and he never cared at all. i feel like because he didn’t care about me he will be very unaffected by everything and it feels so unfair. i keep seeing things and thinking to myself that he would be turned on by it or masturbate to it and it reminds me of everything that happened and i get really sad. i wish i can reach a point where i don’t care anymore and even if i’m reminded of him i don’t get mad.

i feel so upset the last few days and i need to vent because i don’t want to tell him any of this.

i feel very angry and i see things often that remind me of him and it upsets me. i keep seeing things then thinking to myself that if he saw it he would probably masturbate to it. i feel angry that it feels like i’m the only one heartbroken and struggling and he doesn’t care at all. and i realized recently that he doesn’t care about me at all and never did. i have been struggling recently with my physical health and mental health and my safety and he couldn’t care less. when i would message him about him he would mostly just ignore the messages, even when my life is at risk he wouldn’t care at all.

when i tell him how angry and hurt i am he’s so indifferent and he has no empathy whatsoever. the best thing i can do for myself is distance myself from him and not contact him or minimize it as much as possible so i can move on. but i feel really hurt and everything feels very unfair.