u/Competitive-Bunch406

What do you do when you’ve become enlightened through immense tragedy crisis and using 🍄‍🟫in the right way? Now that I’ve reached this point in my journey; I can’t just keep causally existing. But I feel stuck because of my goal to get my degree at a university. I need to find my people, which I am. But I find myself struggling to ignore how screwed up my environment is, and I have to find other people that have also found this place. What I’ve gotten out of my fearless reckless adventures is beautiful, and now I am sober; so the only thing I know I have to do is make it. But I can’t do that through getting a 9-5, or else I am afraid I will become trapped again. I’ve been brainwashed before by this society that begs you to stay contained and asleep, and by my own grit I finally have broken out of alcoholism and depression that was my mistake to get lost in but also not my fault. Do I go become a monk? Do I keep following my dreams of getting a bachelors in psych? I’m already 3 years into this shit. I know I have to keep doing art—(digital/film photography), my minor—and make money off of it. I will succeed. Because I believe in the law of attraction; and the universe has my back. 444. I recently had a new very intense and interesting major life crisis, that almost forced the end of my road, but somehow I came out of it reborn and decked out through what is only defined as a miracle, I’ve never been religious or really cared about being spiritual. But after what the universe showed me during that recent time of darkness cemented that it is clear to me that I have a very important path. But there are forces and vampires that tug at my collar to fall back into the void now that I’m navigating healing and collecting myself from this fresh trauma and important breakthrough. I think that I can hold onto my new found powerful zen place if I make protecting my energy a priority while finishing this degree, because it’s crucial that I follow through with what I started. I am awake, anyone else getting out of a deep sleep?

What do you do when you’ve become enlightened through immense tragedy crisis and using psychedelics in the right way? Now that I’ve reached this point in my journey; I can’t just keep causally existing. But I feel stuck because of my goal to get my degree at a university. I need to find my people, which I am. But I find myself struggling to ignore how screwed up my environment is, and I have to find other people that have also found this place. What I’ve gotten out of my fearless reckless adventures is beautiful, and now I am sober; so the only thing I know I have to do is make it. But I can’t do that through getting a 9-5, or else I am afraid I will become trapped again. I’ve been brainwashed before by this society that begs you to stay contained and asleep, and by my own grit I finally have broken out of alcoholism and depression that was my mistake to get lost in but also not my fault. Do I go become a monk? Do I keep following my dreams of getting a bachelors in psych? I’m already 3 years into this shit. I know I have to keep doing art—my minor—and make money off of it. I will succeed. Because I believe in the law of attraction; and the universe has my back. 444. I recently had a new very intense and interesting major life crisis, that almost forced the end of my road, but somehow I came out of it reborn and decked out through what is only defined as a miracle, I’ve never been religious or really cared about being spiritual. But after what the universe showed me during that recent time of darkness cemented that it is clear to me that I have a very important path. But there are forces and vampires that tug at my collar to fall back into the void now that I’m navigating healing and collecting myself from this fresh trauma and important breakthrough. I think that I can hold onto my new found powerful zen place if I make protecting my energy a priority while finishing this degree, because it’s crucial that I follow through with what I started. I am awake, anyone else getting out of a deep sleep?