u/Competitive-Film5516

I got really >!low in weight (85-90lbs)!< after my first time in the depths of my ed and was in a family based therapy/recovery situation. I became weight restored and never fully recovered mentally. To no surprise, i am back in depths of my eating disorder, just not as bad as the first time yet. Basically as soon as i was weight restored and my parents lightened up on the supervision, i relapsed but never really realized until a few months ago when I fully gave into the restriction. At my lowest point last time i was eating >!less than 500 calories a day!< every day and now I am eating >!less than 900, about 800 a day!< which really makes me feel invalidated because i just feel like its not bad enough at all. People who dont even have an ed probably eat that sometimes. I mean the weight i am at, many people maintain on a healthy diet, so I do not believe “weight restoration” would ever even be necessary right now. Anyway now i am about >!100ish pounds!< which is >!considered underweight!< for my height of >!5’4!< but not considered >!malnourished!< . I am planning on goinf to some kind of residential or inpatient, but i do not qualify for the inpatient program i want to go to unless i >!loose about 10 more pounds minimum!< . I also dont think i would ever feel truly validated if i only went to the residential. I feel like this is a feeling/situation many people in the forum would have found themselves in one way or another, so I was looking for advice and what I should do.