I have questions regarding dialators and also like few personal ones
hi id appreciate any advice one this, Im trying to be extra careful cus i am still very much scared of the down under 🥲 (spare me i grew up in a religious household and am desperate to feel normal) I have been drawing pictures of women doin everyday things while getting penetrated, wierdly that calms me down a bit. I dont draw them enjoying it (cus i dont understand that yet) but i also dont draw them feeling the pain i think this is a wierd way my body wants me to normalize penetation. this has helped me remove some of the fear i have around the dialators which im not gonna lie have been intimidating, i tried putting the smallest one in and i felt it sting it wasn’t just any pain it felt like i was gwtting stabbed and i began to cry👍🙂↕️. which is also something i do these days i have no patience for anything revolving this matter, i expect my body to be doing what its supposed to and when it doesn’t i loose it. cus what do you mean i cant take that small little thumb sized level 1 dialator. i knew it was bad but is it really this bad?
do i just continue pushing it while it feels like im getting stabbed when do i stop? i have a good amount of pain tolerance but i dont want to tear anything.