u/Complex-Archer-8300

Hi guys. I want to attend an online meeting today (I’m far too anxious about anonymity to do one in person) and I’m struggling to figure out how to get myself to one.

I want to attend one that’s not taking place in my country because that makes it feel more anonymous too, but I’m worried people might find me odd for doing that. I’m really talking myself out of this because of this obsession with privacy but I need to try bite the bullet, is it common for people to attend global meetings from all over the world?

ETA “might find me odd”

I’m down to 4 glasses of wine from 2 ish bottles a day (long term, sometimes more sometimes less).

The shame is awful, the anxiety is pretty much unbearable. I’m just sat counting the minutes and ruminating whilst trying to work.

I plan on 3 tonight (tapered quite fast to 4 but no uncomfortable physical symptoms and I don’t have meds either), 2 tomorrow and then 1 Friday then done!

I’d really appreciate any support, this is the most disciplined I’ve ever been during a taper so I know I have to just get through it by any means possible.