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Hello everyone, I hope you are well.
During SATS last night, I had a deep realization concerning the I AM reality. That realization was that I actually have no idea what I really am. My existence is an absolute mystery to me. I can look at the history of the body, but I now see it only as a cherished vehicle, and its origins are imaginary. The conscious awareness that is I AM has no history for me to draw upon; it simply is.
It entertains all the stories and explanations I give it, yet its very substratum is an enigma.

After contemplating this for a while, I thought about the Bible and realized that in Genesis, the very first book, the Earth and everything upon it is created—but not the I AM. Man is created, but not the I AM. So I realized that I am a physical manifestation of the very awareness that I AM; that I am the imagined expression of this eternal, all-encompassing Being.

After this, my attention was drawn to the Book of Job and to God speaking to Job from the whirlwind, refusing to justify any of Job's arguments. Instead, He responds with facts about creation—things nobody could possibly know. Neville says this is where man truly encounters, through experience, what was previously known only through tradition.

Tradition is history, and history is an explanation. It's a cushion for the mind when confronting the vastness of life. If I can point to a family tree and say, "This is where I come from," I immediately feel a sense of comfort and security in that knowledge.

I AM is the antithesis of this. It is acknowledging yourself as the center and creator of your whole reality. Many of us bring tradition into the Law of Assumption when we practice it. We want to know the when and the how, when we don't even know the when or the how that brought us into being. We simply have no idea.

Maybe accepting that fact is what many of us need to do. When you say, "I AM this" or "I AM that," allow it to remain a mystery. It's not about understanding—it's about being. Being can't be explained or negotiated with; it can only be experienced.

Surprise yourself.

I hope you are well. I think it’s really important that we discuss brazen impudence and the conviction necessary to reject material evidence that does not align with our imagined end. Neville states in one of his lectures: “The will of the Lord will not turn back until he has executed and accomplished the intents of his mind.” We are told to be imitators of God because we are God, and there is no other.

There is no separation between you and the depth of your being, so step into your power and decide exactly how the world must be. Command it. Speak as one having authority, because you do.
I remember, many years ago, before I consciously knew the Law, when I was 14, I was seized by an immense desire to return to my home country and see my extended family and friends.

In my mind, there was only one obstacle: I had to wait for my visa application to be approved. So I trusted and prayed, and eventually it arrived on time. I was over the moon, only to hear the very next day that, due to the legal fees involved, we might have to cancel the trip—one that had been planned for over five months. I was devastated.

I’m not one for dramatic displays, but I stormed away from my parents and refused to hear it. I would not accept it. My mind was so firmly settled on this happening that it would not turn. I simply did not accept that outcome. My mother tried to speak to me about it again later that evening and said it just wasn’t the right time, but I refused to respond.

Three days later, my father received payment, completely out of the blue, for a project that had seemed to have stalled. Even he couldn’t believe it.

We all went on that trip, had a splendid vacation, and I saw everyone I wanted to see. This all happened before I knew anything about the Law, but the stubborn will of a young mind will not turn until it achieves what it has set out to do. It’s all or nothing. It never occurred to me what it would take to get there, all that mattered was I was there. As we grow older, it’s so easy to lose that obstinacy.

We begin instead to trust in contingency and half-measures because we’ve been burned one too many times. In this way, I understand what the Bible means when it says we should turn and become like children. We must embody the will and conviction toward our imagination that resides within all of us.

Don’t give in. Don’t give up. And don’t accept anything less than exactly what you want.