I really wish to restart my meditation practice. I did years of anapana meditation before having kids and shifting my focus to trauma resolution.
I’ve been doing TRE for 6 months now and I’m wondering whether meditation interferes with TRE integration, or the opposite: it is actually a great tool for integration?
Nowadays, after some sessions I get emotional releases in the form of crying. I get grumpy and irritated during the day and if I sit with the feeling, I start sobbing for 5-10 minutes.
I was wondering if this is integration and when the heavy feelings clear, does this mean that the integration is complete? I feel somewhat relieved and at peace after each crying session.
I have two kids (4M, 2M) and while I love them to death, they put my nervous system to constant stress. Lately, I’ve been wondering how TRE should be done by young parents. I don’t think that the challenges of raising little kids provide a safe environment for doing integration work between TRE sessions.
Background: I’ve been doing TRE for 6 months. I do 8 minutes 3 times a week. I started with 15 minutes but I soon realized that I was having overdoing symptoms so I reduced session duration. I think I still am struggling with finding the right pace.
I also think I might be coming out of functional freeze. At least, the description of thawing from the wiki fits me quite well. I’m dealing with a lot of suppressed emotion right now (anger maybe?) and I can snap quite fast with my kids.