My boyfriend only dated hot Asian women…And I am neither one of them…
Hello,
I have a boyfriend for a couple of years now.
I have been diagnosed with Bipolar 1 while being with him.
It has been a rollercoaster but we love each other.
He lived in Japan and Korea for his work and moved there from Europe to follow his girlfriend.
I have never been jealous in my life, never.
But I feel quite ugly next to the super hot women he dated.
The most important one is a stewardess and she is super beautiful, like the perfect Korean beauty.
My weight varies depending on which mood I am in.
I am not ugly but not beautiful, average I would say.
When I am up, I certainly am more radiant than when I am down and totally grey.
My boyfriend also dated a hot japanese woman who did pole dance, some SW and some highly intelligent women, all with high degrees and beautiful.
All with long hair and very feminine.
I have two kids and am already happy when I showered and put some make up haha !
My hair is curly and each time I try to wax my legs it all grows back underneath my skin, not at all sexy.
I am an artist, more of a loser profile, but with my low self esteem I always forget I am not that bad at my job.
I just don’t know why I get so jealous.
He slept with another woman (also Asian) while we were together and I knew and did not care.
I never think about it. The only thing I didn’t like was the smell of her perfume on him when he came home.
Maybe being jealous is more about projecting my own doubts on my partner.
Everybody keeps telling me how crazy in love he is with me when we are together.
We weren’t supposed to fall in love, he was just a tinder date and I felt deeply in love the moment I saw him thanks to a very high maniac episode.
I then felt like the most beautiful women in the world.
It’s crazy how Bipolar affects our body image.
Thank you for reading me.