I thought I was straight but I can’t stop thinking about a for I know
I thought I was straight, but I think I might have feelings for a girl I know and I don’t know what to do.
For context, we both seemed straight when we first started talking. She once said something like “I wish we were gay,” so at the time it felt like neither of us saw ourselves that way. Since then, she later came out as bi or possibly lesbian — I’m not 100% sure which.
I’ve always thought I was straight, but recently she’s been on my mind every day out of nowhere. I don’t know if this is a crush, curiosity, emotional attachment, or me realising something about myself.
We’ve known each other for a while and she used to give me very intense compliments that didn’t feel like normal friend compliments. We don’t message consistently right now and I haven’t seen her in a few weeks, but recently I posted a story and she liked it from both her main and spam account, which made me really happy because part of me wanted her to see it. She always compliments me whenever I post and I do the same to her. She has to be the most beautiful girl I’ve have ever seen in my life. I still remember the first day I saw her in college and the day I started talking to her and we both found out we shared similar opinions about eachother.
I don’t want to make things awkward or come on too strong. Would it be better to wait and rebuild casual contact first, like asking to hang out, or should I eventually be more direct? Has anyone else thought they were straight and then suddenly found themselves thinking about a girl every day?