He said he doesn’t love me anymore and hasn’t for a while. He can’t wait for me to be gone. He would be happier alone. I don’t understand how he spends 3 years of his life with me and feels nothing. He broke up with me, and he’s completely fine. We’re still living together until I make arrangements to leave, and I have to just watch him be okay while I can’t even function. How? 3 days before he broke up with me, we had the most passionate, intimate sex where he held my head in his hands, looked me in my eyes and told me he loved me while making love to me. According to him, it was all fake. Telling me he loved me, kissing me, hugging me, checking in on me, making love to me, pulling me in to cuddle, calling me his baby, spending time with me. He was just “keeping the peace”. It makes me want to puke. I just keep thinking, is he even going to miss me at all? Is he going to miss what we shared? Will he want me back ever, once he’s had time apart? With how he’s acting right now and what he said to me when he broke up with me, it doesn’t seem like he will. And that hurts so fucking bad on top of everything else. How he can just let us go, let me walk out the door, never see me again, and be completely content with that. He won’t even think about me. I will spend every night crying myself to sleep like I am now and he’s just going to be living his life, probably talking to other girls, feeling happy and free. This is so unfair and so confusing. I don’t understand how any of this could be happening. How I can feel so much love and attachment, and he just feels nothing. Will he miss me at all like I miss him? I’m hurting so bad..
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He’s breaking up with me. He doesn’t want me or us anymore. Says he wants to be alone and he feels like our relationship is holding him back from progressing in his life. He told me the “only clear path forward” for him is breaking up and focusing on himself. Nothing I could say could change his mind. I feel shattered. Like I feel like I can’t even breathe. I can’t sleep or eat. I’ve been crying for like 24 hrs straight. He’s the love of my life. I love him so much it fucking hurts and I’m supposed to just move on with my life without him. 3 years together, our whole lives intertwined. And now in a month I’m moving out of the apartment that we got together, leaving him our two cats that we adopted together, and moving back home with my family. I’ll never see him again. I’ll never hear his voice again. I’ll never wake up to him or feel his arms wrapped around me or hear him call me baby. All the memories just keep playing on repeat in my head it won’t stop. The pain is fucking unbearable.. I dont know what to do.