Fiancée (27M) will not go down on me (25F) anymore.
My (27M) fiancee will not go down on me (25F) anymore. We have been together for 5 years, in the first year he went down on me and I “peed in his mouth.” Ever since then he has stopped going down on me. I would continuously give him blow jobs in this time (maybe twice a month) but in the last 6 months I have stopped because he doesn’t go down on me. Is it toxic of me to give him blowjobs if he doesn’t do it to me? For context I do not enjoy giving blowjobs really I just do it for him. He has not taken to this very well and accuses me of “holding sex hostage.” I am always down for normal sex but just not blowjobs. To mention he is very high functioning autistic and has naturally low libido while I have a higher libido. It’s hard me to finish with PIV and have cum maybe 5 times in that 5 years since has stopped. He has been trying more as of late to make me finish but it’s a struggle. We are starting to plan our wedding and I do not think it’s inherently fair that I have to come to terms with never getting eaten out again.