Destroyed my entire life from one decision
Be careful what you wish for... My nine year old son said it a few nights ago as we rot in a small disgusting house in the Philippines.
I was a technical manager at a great company in Thailand making a good salary. Everything wasn't perfect but looking back.... It really was.
My boss was my best friend and teacher and I was upset his son had started pushing me out of the picture... Looking back it was simple jealousy and he is a good guy doing his best as the company is struggling a bit.
Took a job in South Africa which is my birth country and took my two beautiful kids and my amazing wife with.
The culture shock hit me so hard that I didn't know which way to turn. After eighteen years in beautiful Thailand it felt like my entire life had been pulled from under me. I couldn't think straight and didn't sleep for months while trying to do a job which requires I interact with those who really didn't want me there.
On top of that, all of our things.... Everything except what we brought with on the flight was lost in transit between Thailand and sa.
I kept running... And running until we hit visa issues and I just gave up and flew here with the family.
Now.... After all the terrible decisions I can only look back and realize our lives are over.
Visa will expire soon and burnt all our money and savings running.
Be careful what you wish for and never make decisions from a place of fear.
All is done
It's over
All our dreams
My babies dreams of being doctor and engineer over
My wife and my dreams over
Building a future.... Over
Everything is finished
I'm 46 years old and its my birthday in four days
Happy birthday