Think of her everyday
It feels so disgusting and creepy and pathetic
she wants nothing to do with me and im the one who cut it off anyway last year
I couldnt handle the on and off, friends ,not friends or something more and my communication skills sucked
always in a grey area after we broke up and before i ended it
I loved her a lot for many years and I still do, Im the one whos still stuck on her
I dont keep up on her life in any way, never looked at any social media or things like that but im sure she hates me and never thinks of it
Sometimes I think she’s the only one I’ve ever loved or will love
I tried talking to other people and stuff but it never feels right and id rather be alone
Knowing we’ll never speak again kills me some days and i won’t reach out because it’s selfish
I never post on these things but I have nowhere else to express it besides my journal
Ive written letters and paragraphs i can never send